In dance today we were doing our warm-up and Justin (our instructor) was kicking our butts with the cardio portion and some people yelled out from pain/fatigue/to be obnoxious, and I thought, "Isn't it incredible that I have this body that functions? And that I can do these movements?" Then I thought, "If he doesn't stop making us do jumping jacks I'm going to kill him." BUT, I did have a moment of gratitude for the incredible gift that is my body.
Also, since I've been here I have seen more tears that I know what to do with. Everyone is very emotional. Between 10 girls' PMS and long-distance boyfriend trauma, two gay guys who frequently tell us about their relationship drama (not with one another), and all of the stress and emotional tension that comes with portraying these freakishly messed-up characters, it's like coming to a Group Therapy session every class. We have gotten to know each other quite well in such a short time - that's what happens when you are tapping into intimate parts of yourself to bring your emotion to the work. It's just been a crazy journey so far.
Tonight I go to bed so happy and so hopeful.
Love love.
HA! I am sure that makes from some interesting group therapy
ReplyDeleteMy laptop is broken :( so I haven't had much internet time lately. I'm catching up today :) I had a similar thought as I was riding my bike today. I raced in a run bike race last night in Ogden and have been riding my bike more than usual and was feeling EXHAUSTED today as I was riding up hill in salt lake. I had a million negative thoughts going through my head, how bloody hot summers are in utah, how ward my helmet kept my head, how sweaty I was, blah blah blah, then I thought, "Wow, My body has been doing so much on this bike lately. It's amazing. Be a little more appreciative." So then I thought about my muscles and bones and ability to keep going. It was hard to keep positive thoughts going through my head but it made a huge difference as i rode.
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